My name is… well, let’s call me “Luna” for now. I will tell you why later on.
This is my weight loss journey, live, as I go through it.
Let’s Talk About How I Got Here
I have been overweight for most of my life. However, in recent years, it has become more of an issue.
I used to be what people would say:
“She is pretty. If she would just lose a few pounds, she would be so much prettier.”
I was not by any means model-pretty, but my skin was healthy, and I had (have) great hair—I was just a bit overweight.
Then life happened. I was stressed daily, and I started to gain a few pounds each year. Then more life happened, and the pounds started piling up, with no solutions that worked. I was too stressed to see life for what it was: a blessing.
Fast forward to a little over a year and a half ago. I heard a co-worker was on a medication that was helping her with her struggle to lose weight and keep it off.
I couldn’t wait to hear how it was going every few months. And as we were all mostly remote working at that time due to the residuals of lockdown, I only saw her occasionally in online meetings where we might be required to have our cameras on.
You may wonder—after seeing her results for the last few months of her journey—why I would not jump to find out about the specifics and check into it for myself.
Fear and money.
The Fears That Held Me Back
I was afraid. Afraid that it would not work for me. Afraid that my family or friends would hear and say I took the “easy way out.” (The reason I am going by “Luna” for now.) Afraid because I didn’t want to know where I really was on the weight scale. Afraid that I would not have the money to try it.
So many fears. These are just a few. They were real to me—and real to a lot of people in my same boat.
Looking back, I know this fear is what usually kept me from, well… living.
I received a phone call 9–10 months ago. I was talking with one of my children, and they were thinking about where they are at in life, compared to where I was at that same age. I had small children, I was a single working mother, and I was going to school.
They told me they knew they could not do what I had done.
I told them:
You just know what you need to do, and you just do it—without thinking if you have enough energy or enough money.
This comes into play later in my decision-making.
They also confided in me, at that time, that they were ready to start a family. I was happy for them.
Then I thought…
I hope I am still around when those kids are graduating from high school.
Mind you, I am not so far up there in age that I should worry. And I was not so unhealthy that I would not be around. But I knew if I didn’t do something about my weight, even if I was still around—I would most likely not be in any kind of shape to be very interactive with my future grandchildren.
New fear unlocked!
Coming Up Next…
I stayed in that limbo—a place between wanting change and fearing what that change might demand—for longer than I’d like to admit.
Watching someone else succeed made the possibility feel real, but the fears still whispered louder than my hope.
And yet… something was starting to stir.
I didn’t know it yet, but a conversation was coming that would challenge everything I believed about myself, my future, and what I was truly capable of.
That call changed everything.
Stay tuned for my next blog to find out how.